Rob & Alice

November 2012 archive

Update – Cancer Free!

I haven’t posted in a while. My computer is broken and even though we have an abundance of electronics that would get the job done, I just like my computer.

I had my last “fill” yesterday at the plastic surgeons and as I lay here I can hardly breathe. I am having muscle spasms in my back and shoulders and it hurts. I know it will pass over the next few days but, right now I am very impatient. I’m probably going back to work next week. I have a doctors appointment on Monday (I still have to have my back drained every week) and I’m hoping that will end soon.

I was hoping to have all surgeries done this year (insurance) but, the doctor wants me to “rest” for 6-8 weeks to allow things to heal more. I will probably have my next surgery in Feb. The idea is that after the “rest” period, the doctor thinks that he can finish reconstruction in one surgery. He also will work with my GYN and any surgery that he is going to do will be done at the same time too! (So, hopefully one more surgery only!)

I have been hesitant to say this because I still have that on the horizon, but I AM CANCER FREE. I am taking the hormonal chemo pill and so far only a few hot flashes, but nothing I can’t handle. Will write more later. Maybe I’ll admit to what tv shows I’ve been watching!!

Gratitude for Chance

I haven’t been doing the daily thankful thing this month, but today I have to say that I am grateful for my son. Not only has he shown an insane amount of strength and maturity over the last six weeks, he has this amazing ability to make me laugh from deep inside. He has the most amazing sense of humor and knows the value and the healing power of laughter.

Update – No Hard Chemo!

My computer is broken, so just a quick update from my phone. The genetic test we’ve been waiting on came back negative.

No hard chemo!!

Tough week in relation to pain and emotions have been high (poor Rob and Chance). I imagine we will all sleep well tonight. :)

Miracles Do Happen

A couple of weeks ago, when I updated I shared that we were waiting on two tests to give us the definite NO that we want regarding chemo.

Today, we went to see the surgeon and they had the results for the oncotype DX test (this measures the probability of the cancer returning and gives a road map to treatment if needed). I am in the LOW PROBABILITY category!!! We are waiting on one more test, but we (and ALL the doctors) believe that it too will be negative-those results we will get next Friday. My surgeon said today EXACTLY what my oncologist said, that the fact that this was discovered when it was is a miracle.

I have never “expected” miracles. I have always believed that you have to work for them. You have to be kind to others for them to be kind to you (there is no time limit on when THEY have to start-fyi), you have to give to learn how to receive, you have to be a friend to have a friend, you MUST be understanding to be understood!!

Through the last forty five days, I have still not expected miracles! I have taken each day as it has come. I have asked God to take what I could not handle. When He provided relief and I was still left with some burden, I knew that He was telling me that I could handle whatever He had left for me. I have NEVER once thought that God was punishing me. I have thanked Him regularly for the love and support that my family, my friends and even strangers have given me. WE-you and I-have worked for these miracles that are occurring!!

Each time you have posted kind words, sent letters in the mail, baked or cooked something, offered yourself and your time, prayed for me (to whatever Higher Power you believe in), you have been a part of the work!! I will never be able to express the love and gratitude I have for everyone that has reached out. When I haven’t been able to sleep, albeit from pain, anxiety, worry or the need for quiet meditation-I have gotten up and looked at what you all have written and thanked God that I am NOT alone in my fight!

So, the rest of the results next Friday, the plan is still to take the hormonal chemo pill for five years, still more surgeries to come AND please don’t quit working for my miracles or YOURS!!!!